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Saturday, April 30

t.o.w. the iran dance

Wee! I'm back, this time from Lord of the Dance!

Michael Flatley rocks. Period.

Hmm. Let me just say it is not at all usual for me to be watching 2 theaterical delights in back to back weeks. It just so happened that these were 2 shows that I couldnt missed. I couldnt afford the extravagant lifestyle otherwise anyway.

Hmm. The past week hasnt been all to good. I was sick. I still am. I'm coughing and wheezing as though I have a something stuck in my throat. I'm positively sure its something I have to say about someone. Some people. And then, I had to miss the stupid bio lect test. And then, Stephanie got voted out of Survivor. I now find no motivation to watch it at all. It also marks the first time the person I supported got voted out that early. Then again, all in the world is fair and Constantine is officially someone or rather something never to be heard of again. It almost makes up for all the negative energy in the week. No more disgusting smokey smirks that says "Vote for me, otherwise, my pouchy lips will be puckered up all week in your face." That was probably why he lasted that long anyway. Thankfully, rock songs didnt quite allow that persona. =)

And of course, the worst had to come. So what do I do? Oh well. I don't really know either. I guess I should just wait and see. It probably wouldnt work out. Oops. =) But yeah, I'm keeping that tad bit of faith that built up over the past few weeks.

Bowling. Hmm.. Not so good. I realised I was doing it wrongly the entire time. So its back to the drawing board again I guess. Arghz. Contented with the scores on Weds roll-off though. Still no hook. =(

Hmm. Lord of the Dance. I guess I enjoyed it a little more than SOM, perhaps cos' I knew what SOM was all about. But Dance was more up-tempo I guess. Enjoyed it quite abit. And I am totally in love with that violanist. The movement and music was mesmerising. I'm mallitering. That said, its gonna be a very long time before I watch another theatre show again. I'm broke. Hmm. Interesting thing I noted. You know how the development of the Esplanade and all was to really liven up the culture and arts scene here, in Singaporeans? But yeah, majority of the crowd today were mainly made up of Caucasians. So yeah, it got me wondering how effective the campaign was. Oh well. Hmm. I sat beside this woman who I felt was acting really really high class. And she was pointing out to me the wonders of dance and how to appreciate it. Not that I was entirely interested. She should really take courses in body language. When people nod their head and smile and keep looking in front. It really means they are not interested in you. That or you have bad breath. Both applied this time. Yeah, and she was pointing something out about how the IRAN dance was extremely enthralling. Last time I checked, Dance was mainly Irish.

Hmm. I shouldnt really shoot my mouth off here, but I guess some people just don't get how much a pain in the ass they are. And how acting like they are the ones in the drivers seat is totally pathethic. Should stop.

Secrets. Always wanted to blog about this. Have you ever passed up knowing something special and extra that others don't? I know I havent. But its a social issue. Its not because people are always that gossipy and stuff. I really do think its cos' by sharing a secret, its letting in someone in on your private life and that just creates a special bond between two people. Its not easy to get in on that. So yeah.

Was on the bus today and there were these two kids that were extremely irritating. Jumping about ths bus like nobodies business and quarreling and making up in instantatenous seconds. Headache-inducing. I almost wanted to ask them to shut their crap up. I never remembered myself being such a nuisance, or at least I think. But anyway, I shut my own mouth cos their father was seated next to me. I can be loud and abrasive. Maybe not so much, relatively-speaking of course. =)

I bought Friends season 9 and 10! Wee! Gonna doodle my time off watching the best show ever to be screened on the tube. Friends rock!

Hmm. Thats about all.

Stay dignified.

kenn thwacked an asshat munchkin' at 11:28 PM

Friday, April 22

t.o.w. the sound of music

Wee. It was so nice!

Yeps. Hahx. Watched the musical at the Esplanade (ass-pler-nard / ass-pler-nehed, whatever) and yeah it was enjoyable. But not entirely enjoyable cos' there were some really really boring parts. I mean, I guess they wanted to break away from the movie, so they ended up mixing up the songs and incorporating silly nonsensical duets. Oh well, but yeah, I still enjoyed it quite a bit and so I guess I don't regret it. Hahx. I thoroughly enjoyed the familiar songs and the slap-stick humour. And the small girl, Gretel, is soooooo cute. I could put her in my pocket. Ahh, so yeah. It was just really nice. I guess if you watched the movie, then maybe you should be a really huge fan before you decide to bomb out a couple hundred. But if you think its all about Doe-A- Deer, then yeah, the trip shouldnt be too wasted. :) Oh yah, at the end of the musical, everyone was applauding the perfomers and then suddenly somehow, the clapping found a rhythm and it was electrifying, the atmosphere, it really was. Everyone was so hyped up!

Wee. Today had nice training. Hahz. I think we were working on sparing today, which is good. Hahz. So yeah, Janice and myself hopped over to join the seniors cos' the juniors lane was too crowded. And yeah, it was quite ok, hahx, despite the bad bad bowling, I guess it was fun lah. Having pins makes it so much more interesting. And yeah, the seniors were able to offer some nice advice. Hahz. :) Oh yah, I'm bowling worse everyday. Last saturday, I still managed to hook a little. On wednesday, I was hitting it straight and today, I was spinning. So yeah, I pretty much figure I'll start cranking soon. :( Oh well. I want to hook!!! Best training ever still though =)

Ah! Had friendly with NJ on Wednesday. I bowled so badly lah and yah, I saw the scores of everyone today by chance. And I pretty much suck :) Grrr. Hahz. The funny thing was, I played 6 games on Saturday and didnt feel tired, but I played 4 on wednesday and was all bushed already. Oh well. Negative motivation sucks!

I have a PI! Nehnehnehneh... =) Hahx. But its very lame lah. If you have not already heard it, the general consensus I've got is that it sucks really really badly. I'm adamant.

My family is weird. 3 of us are in a row on the computer and everyones singing along to this song im playing on my computer now. So cool. Hahz

I want to hook!!!

Stay hookish =)

kenn thwacked an asshat munchkin' at 11:56 PM

Saturday, April 16

t.o.w. the 30 spares

Wee. I just came back from bowling with Ronald today. It was good!

Hahx. Ok lah. I'm still quite unpro in the sense that the hook on the ball is terribly limited, but at least the ball is revolving properly. So yeah, I'm happy. Anyway, I wasnt really able to strike much today. I think I might have hit a couple in the 6 games. But yeah, I was totally rocking in the spare'ing department. Hopefully I've gotten used to the new ball. It's getting better lah. I know the hook isnt very much apparent, but at least uncle paul nodded once after observing me. I think he finally recognises me. Hehx. But yeah. I was quite happy. Then he watched me again, and I became quite panicky and I didn't know what happened to my footwork and I went like 4 steps and released the ball about a meter and a half behind the foul line. Score! Felt so dumb. Oh well. But yeah. I was happy with bowling today. Thanks Ron for coming. =) Umm. It is obviously way too early to buy a reactive ball. But then I'm thinking its quite dumb no? I mean, I know the plastic one is gonna help in the basics and all, which is important! But it just seems dumb that when you get your new ball, you're gonna have to realign certain adjustments and make some changes here and there. Like, what for? Oh well. I shall be content. =) Bowling people are all so fun. All of them. Everyones so friendly and nice. Hope unlike some other groups, such a thing lasts.

Yeah. Nothing really much to blog about, except that the previous entry was total crap. I mean, the st**id British Embassy did not keep to its promise and send out the mails for me. So yeah, I pretty much figure the chances of me taking part in the event is just about zilch. Oh well. Hopefully, someday, Channel 5 will embark on another copying spree and emulate Amazing Race in its entirety. Then I'll be the first to go for it. Either that, or I could give up Singaporean citizenship and migrate to the States. All for a show? Yeah. Then again, the States probably wouldn't accept "wishes to take part in reality show" as a reason for migration. Oh well.

Just when I though I caught up with schoolwork, I'm back behind again. Hahz. I thoroughly enjoyed the 2 days that I slept real early cos' I didnt have to rush work for the next day. But then, somehow, I'm all behind schedule again. Arghz. School also somehow seems really boring nowadays. I havent really felt that way before. Yeps, even in the study-or-die year. I was still pretty much hyped about school each day. But then somehow, during Bio lecture on Monday. I just felt zapped. Even Julian was asking me why I looked so tired. I was thinking about how there was still another period of bio, followed immediately by Chem lecture and all. I mean, its not the usual "last bell goes - i'm free" syndrome. It was more of a "What am I doing here?" kinda thing. Which was quite freaky, cos' I've never felt that way before. The only day I felt significantly happy was Wednesday and Friday. Cos there was training after school. =) Oh, also on Monday, cos there was CIP at Jurong after school and no matter how impish those kids are, their laughter is infectious. =)

I was worried and now its better but somehow, I'm doubtful. Let me not be so impatient.

kenn thwacked an asshat munchkin' at 7:25 PM

Wednesday, April 13

t.o.w. the great scavenger hunt

Yup. I'm really really excited about it. Hopefully I can make it in time and get in on it. Right, its no amazing race, but its probably the closest I can get to anything like that sort. Oh well.

Anyway. Criteria for selection for the event is based on the number of people that I refer to signup for the competition. So you don't physically have to take part, you just need to sign up and not garner any referrals! Then you'll be helping me a whole deal! So start signing up today! Thanks, you guys.

Yeah. I'm quite sad and worried about it. Hope all's well for both.

kenn thwacked an asshat munchkin' at 9:17 PM

Friday, April 8

t.o.w. the ashworth bag

Well yeah. I guess I should blog a bit about everyday life. Its getting too surreal in here.

Anyway. Hmz. Let's start with bowling on Wednesday. I guess, I suck. Haha. I really do. I mean like, I can't do a single shit with this ball lar. I'm so screwed. With luck, I'll be ready for nationals NEXT year. Yeah. Oh well. Hahx. So right now, I'm averaging really badly. Except for when I have the wristguard on. Hahx. I bowl like a pro with it. Even hit a 162 with it. So yeah. But I don't want to get too dependent on it and stuff. So yeah. I just need to figure out how to do it properly. C'mon! Hehz. I shall train more often. So anyway, wednesday. Right, my mum was pestering me to use the trolley bag for the ball lah. So I reluctantly agreed cos yeah, I don't mind not carrying the 13-pound weight when I already have books and all to deal with. Hahx. But my bag is damn un-pro lah. Its a golf bag, for crying out loud! Oh well. Haha. But lucky, Janice also wanted to switch to an un-pro trolley bag. Hahz. So pretty much decided that if we were gonna look like toots, we wouldnt be alone. Hahx. So yeah. Wednesday came, and I brought the bag and hid it underneath the classbench even though it's large size made it easy prey for potential bowlers. Hehx. Then training came, and everyone gathered around. Then I realised that Janice had the exact same bag. Hahx. Same model and all, just that a different company logo imprinted on it. Surprise surprise. We should make it a team bag. Compulsory for all J1s. The new Ashworth trolley bag. Balls sold seperately. Any old how, went bowling again today with Nicole, Kegan, Yiyun and Hongming. Once again, bowled like shit until I put "Magic" on. Haha. You know what, I realised, that if the lanes were 10 times longer, my ball could probably curve in nicely. I'm not doing it right. Arghz. Train!!!

I watched American Idol yesterday. And you know what. I totally take my hat off to Fantasia. She's that good. I mean like, apart from the at times weird wide open stances she takes while singing, she's really good lah. Imagine prancing around the stage while maintaining that strong voice of hers. Whole hat off to her. I want to buy her album. Umm. My birthday's not that soon, but anyone out there willing? Meanwhile, I'm totally loving Carrie Underwood. Just her song choice and uber strong voice coupled with that nice tone of hers. Its magic. Hope she wins.

BBI. I think we might have a chance. Hahx. The idea is actually really good and hopefully the proposal was solid. I mean, yeah, I put in quite a bit of time in it. Hope we'll do well. If anyone doesnt know, our idea is a MP3 downloading station. Its uber cool.

2.4 Run. I sucked. It seems I suck at a lot of stuff. Hahx. I don't know, for a while, I thought I was pretty motivated. Like, I managed to channel all the negative energy I had into running for the first couple of rounds. Then I just totally conked out lah. So yeah, after the run, I was feeling so bad, I felt like vomiting my heart out. Literally. So yeah. I crawled back to the terraces and sat apart from the class. Cos yeah, you can't really expect me to be all laughs and smiles and socialise when my aorta is up my oesophagus. Hahx. But then, Shiqi came round to talk to me. It was quite comforting. She's just someone I can totally talk to. Geez. Soul brother. Haha. Yeah. Thanks for the pig note anyway. It was nice. Hahz.

Hahx. Right. To my dearest friend, Ronald. I know nice comforting messages are probably gonna bore you right now. But you know me, I speak to motivate, not comfort. So yeah, you probably know what I'm going to say to you later given how you've been a solace for the past couple of weeks. So yeah. Thanks for being there when I was down and all. So I guess, I better darn right be right there behind you. Hahx. So yeah. =D You did good, do good bro.

Right. Back to the unhappiness. Hahx. It probably needs a little getting used to as much as I am rational about it. It just feels very superficial what I have. Like almost fake. You know and so now I feel betrayed a tad bit. Cos' I was promised something before and before you know it, people are shaking to a whole other beat. (Pun intended. Hehx.) So yeah. And now it seems, like I'm the one being abnormal and freaky. Did my back hurt your knife?

kenn thwacked an asshat munchkin' at 8:48 PM

Tuesday, April 5

t.o.w. internal peace

Yeah. For once, I feel at peace.

Yeps. I actually feel relaxed, despite being really tired. I don't know, I haven't felt this way for a really really long time. Like, since O levels ended. Its quite true how without work, one actually has way too much time to think about stuff and worry overly about stuff. So yeah. I'm good. I hope it stays. So yeah, its like, for the first three months, I mean I was happy, but I definitely wasn't getting by alright by my standards. I mean. I need to be me. And that entails me being happy and poised about what I'm doing. Even though I may still be a little self-conscious at times ; but then again, who isnt. So yeah. I'm good. =D

I don't know what happened either. It just sinked in. So yeah. It's right now.

A silent observer,
sees not all yet knows it all,
glum he seems,
intense is he,
sensing veneer faces,
yet hiding his weaknesses,
good is he.

Woo. I feel all literary now. Hahx. Its just really funny to see how people react to one another. And how people have motivations for doing one thing and saying another. Social dynamics, social science, whatever. It does seem really really interesting. Maybe I should major in it or something like that. Either that, or I could just be content with my periodic dosages of backstabbing and lying in Survivor. It does seem a little far-fetch, but it really relates to life. It is really quite amazing to see it at work. Its almost like econs, where theres an imaginary hand governing how people act and all. Its getting awfully cliched. Oh well.

I'd like to think I'm pretty intense despite my constant laughing and joking and all. I don't like it when people try to read me and my actions. Its probably why I shouldnt do it. But yeah, it cant be helped, its all social mindsets at work. So I probably shouldnt try to understand how it works. It'd be nice just to sit on a boat and let the river move it. Waterfall, rapids, come what may. Come they may.

So yeah, I'm in the same zone as I was back then. It's probabaly good.

Stay peaceful.

kenn thwacked an asshat munchkin' at 10:07 PM