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Sunday, February 27

t.o.w. the happy days (for now)

Yeps yeps. Things are brightening up.

I had a nice talk with boonpin last night, admist being freaked by some gurgling noise that went *kakukakukaku*... hahx.. It was a short talk, but quite impactful.. hahx. You know why, its cos I think too much and read too much into what she said and so I'm back to thinking everything is ok based on thinking way deep into what she said, which actually means I'm back where I started, which is thinking too much, which actually means this para is crap, which actually bodes well, considering I crap when I'm happy.

Hahx. Had tons of fun today at STJ. The day was actually really hectic, cos I woke up really late, at like 1. Then I was rushing to finish the book for jinyang and the present. Then I rushed to fetch Benjamin, and then rushed for STJ. So! Hahx. But at least people liked the book, and hopefully the recipient liked it. It was a real mess arranging and re-arranging the texts and pictures and all. I'm happy its done. Hahx =D

Yahs. Then someone had a apparel incident, so 3 of us ended up in the adidas fitting room, trying to salvage the situation. It was oddly amusing. Hahz. 3 guys, 1 fitting room. Hahx. =D But yeah, I had fun today. Nga Teng was damn on and nice. Hahx. He was thanking us for inviting him to sit with us, then saying the book was a nice gift, then saying he was sorry he had to go. Hahx. Kinda atoned for the cross-country fiasco. So yeah. Hahaz.

Yups. I'm happier. I'm thinking less, things look good. For now. Then Monday comes. ):

Good luck y'all!

kenn thwacked an asshat munchkin' at 12:11 AM

Tuesday, February 22

t.o.w. the pre-results stress

Yeps. I'm officially fretting.

Hmm. They're saying the results are out this week. I'm like, half and half. I mean, I want the results to be released sooner cos' I'm pretty anxious, but then again, I rather not know it, cos' I'm happy with where I'm at and what I'm doing right now. Oh well..

Hmmz. I dunno. I felt all right after the papers. Maybe because I chose not to think about the then distant future. Ahhz. But, now, I'm like wondering if I could have done any better, being the perfectionist that I am. Aiiiz.

Hmm. Another couple of days of fretting and then we'll see. I pray and hope I can stay in the lovely s74 with my zesty classmates. Totally rocky =D. Ahz. Too sianified to carry on...

Anyway, in other news. I'm still thinking too much. Frankly, I think I'm quite dumb. And I refuse to go back through the dumb track once again. So yeps. I dunno what to do. =(

May all go well!

Good luck to us! =)

Hmm.. adding on about today, but I don't want a new post. Anyway. I'm so bugged. Somethings bugging me and I can't exactly seem to place my thumb on it. Aiz. I feel tired everytime. I need to find my place. Maybe its not here.

Ahhz. All my recent entries are so negative, maybe cos' I'm only blogging when I'm bluesy. Oh well. I'm actually not that sad. Just beat. Which doesnt bode well, considering I have another 60+ years on average. Oh well~

kenn thwacked an asshat munchkin' at 8:34 PM

Thursday, February 10

t.o.w. the chicken year

Yeps. Yeps. So its the new year. So what?

Hahaz. Blame the negativity. I dunno. This year just doesn't seem to be that worth being happy about. Haha. Or maybe the festive mood is absent or something. Or maybe I'd just rather spend the 2 days off with the class ; in much better company. I duno. I just don't seem psyched up about the new year.

Apart from the money I'm getting of course.

Hahaz. Oh well. Yeah. I dunno. Anyway. I find kids at the age of 10-12 extremely irritating. They seem rude and irksome. Oh well. Then again, I was of that age once, and so I'm thinking if I was ever that sickenin' before. Bahz. I'm thinking I was =)

Anyway. Kris and Jon didnt win. I guess maybe thats why I'm kinda dejected. Hahaz. They were so cute together. They look like John Vito and Jill from AR3 but 10 times nicer. Really. I really wonder how they kept their cool for so long. They both must be excellent peeps. Awww. I felt so sad for them. They totally deserve to win. Shucks. They look perfect together. I hope they have an amazing life ahead of them. And Aaron proposed to Hayden. I thought it was so much sweeter than the dumb Rob proposing to Amber. So. Hahaz. Yeah. But Kris and Jon. Oh god. Kris and Jon. Golden couple. =)

Yeah. NP got gold! Hahaz. Yeps. At least out hardwork payed off. So yeah! My incessant bitching at my dept heads. wasn't without good cause. Hahaz. Oh well. Allow the dedication.

NP Got Gold --

Now that you've gone,
All that's left is NP got gold.
All that's left are the dreams I hold,
Is that NP got gold.
And the memories, of what love would be,
If you were, still here with me.

You took me,
From the shelter of a mother I had never known,
To love any other,
We kissed after taking vows,
But that night on our honeymoon
We stayed in seperate rooms.

Since you've been gone!
All thats left is that NP got gold.
All thats left are the dreams I hold.
And if you were still here with me,
Hey...
NP Got Gold!

I'm done. This year just doesn't excite me. Boo. I have no idea why. Hahaz. I'm entirely fine, just in case ppl are wondering. It just seems weird. Hahaz. Peace out y'all~ Hope you guys are having tons of fun. =)

kenn thwacked an asshat munchkin' at 9:34 PM

Saturday, February 5

t.o.w. the reunion dinner

I ate 3 whole rolls of ngoh hiang.

Haha. Had reunion dinner, which actually wasnt the highlight of the day at all. Its just really weird to name it, t.o.w. the bowling seniors or t.o.w. the cousin talk. So yeah. Hahaz. It also makes me look a lot more family-oriented. So why not. Hahaz.

Okiez. Anyway, I just want to say thanks to all you peeps who posted on my tagboard to say some nice stuff. Pam, juli and I think jinyang. Oh and boonpin too. Hahaz. It was real sweet. Thanks yah. I guess I'm fine, just my huge nerves acting up on me. Oh well. Thanks again. Proof of why s74 totally kicks ass.

Hahaz. I'm also really bored right now, thats why I'm blogging. Oh well.

Anyway. Had bowling today. Which was kinda crappy. I hate drills. I feel weird doing them. Whats more, I've done 4 years of drills on saturdays. Its high time I stop doing them, even if they are entirely seperate entities. Hahaz. Oh well. Yeah. I don't think I benefited much from the drills. But Uncle David from last week was kinda helpful. I still remembered the ABC visualisation thing and so used that to help me. I bowled well today, despite only playing 8 frames. 5 strikes. =D. So I'm pleased. Also, I was so much more relaxed today. I really can't deal with pressure. Arhz. Crap. Then went for lunch with the bowling seniors. Hopefully I list their names without screwing up. Shao Ming, Nelson, Julian, Kelvin, Yusin. Yeah! Hahaz. They seem like really nice people. Then the talk shifted to computer games. Specifically LAN games, and then I got so out of tuned. I haven't played in donkey years. They give me headaches larhz. Oh well. Anyway, had to leave early for reunion dinner, which wasnt entirely bad, given that they went lan'ning. Oh well. Hahaz. Nice peeps though. I also achieved my aim today! Wahaha =D

Ahhz. Had the reunion dinner through steamboat. And for the first time, the kids table's soup was so much better than the adults. Hahaz. Thanks to yours truly! Haha. But I didnt eat much, cept' for the 3 rolls of ngoh hiang, which turn out to be abt 18 pieces. Yums. Then we retreated to the room and started talking crap. Given that we were the only two cousins remaining, unaffected by the marvel of playing with torchlights and jumping on the bed. And for him to tell me tons of stuff. Was nice. Haha. I weirded out and just lay on the bed and listened. Hahaz. He has such funny stories. But yeah. Hahaz. So yeah! I had a nice time. Then he went on to tell me his many experiences with ghosts and I tell you, Chinese High ghost stories are nothing compared to his. Absolutely nothing! Bahz. I'm so freaked up right now. Be bad to me and I'll shove them down your throat. Hehx.

Oh well. Stay peaceful~

kenn thwacked an asshat munchkin' at 11:04 PM

Friday, February 4

t.o.w. the kap run

I'm just so motivated.

I am, I really am. X-Country is like, really soon and I don't have much time to train. So, in my total goal of defeating a certain toot in class, I went running! Hahaz. I'm gonna come out and say I detest rounds. Absolutely abhore it. So I would much rather 1 really long round. So, yeah, similar to cross country. And we ran all the way from school to KAP today. Excellent. Hahaz. I was kinda glad I didnt stop to walk halfway, but yeah, I was running kinda slow anyway. Oh well. Hahaz. And when we reached KAP, I was so happy, I was probably beaming with joy. But then, people tell me the run is less dan 2.4k and I shagged out lah. Like, what the hell! Hahaz. But yeah, I'm just happy I ran lah. Basically, I haven't run as much in the past 2 years then in this past one month. Hehex.

Ok, other news. I like fridays. Hahaz. They are so fun. 5 periods in the same classroom and then maths lect and bio practical. So slack! Hahaz. And yeah, most of the time, its all play play play. Hahaz. Bahz. I also hate thursdays. Cos' theres csp and whatnot. But mainly csp. Hahz. Oh well. My timetable isnt that bad, so I shant complain. I'm still loving s74. Hahaz. So much fun lah. Every night my jaw aches from the smiling and laughing. Hahaz. I really wish there would be really little turnover. Hahz.

Anyway, while almost the whole world went to buy guitars today, a couple of us took to painting the banner. Finished it. Hahaz. It looks really lame. But at least its eye-catching. Others are really nice too, just that they seem kinda alike. You know, flower here flower there, calligraphy here and calligraphy there. Hahaz. So yeah. I like it. Then after that, went out wif lijia, pam and weien. Played pool and I got really lucky lah. Hahaz. I am normally not that good. Serious. Hahaz. Then we went for dinner and talked crap there. Then we went down to mac for icecream and more crap. Hahaz. Then we walked to the bus-stop, admist more crap. So yeah. It was crappish. But very fun. Hahaz. I had a nice time. Nice slack end to the end of the schooling week. Not to say that I was busy studying anyway. Hahaz. Oh well. Then waited for eternity for the dumbass bus with weien and went home.

Without a doubt, the slackest week ever. Oh well. Its only 3 months. Actually just 1. = (

Anyway, whats wrong with M1. My phone was lagging horribly the last couple of days. Like, I recieved tuesdays morning msg on wednesday evening. Horrible! Bahz. So yeah, sorry to all whom I kinda dao'ed. It wasnt intentional. Hahaz.

Bowling tml. I'm excited. Hahaz. =)

kenn thwacked an asshat munchkin' at 10:21 PM

Tuesday, February 1

t.o.w. i'm all abstract

I guess I'm feeling a little bluesy.

Yeah, sometimes I think I fret too much. I worry about this and worry about that and complicate my whole life. But that's just me yar. I always pre-empt the next strike. I guess I was moulded so. Bahz.. Thats not too good. And thats entirely why I need to be more positive. Oh well. Anyway, about the incident. I've had so many bad experiences. And I don't want this to be another. Hahx. I'm kinda at a lost now.. Do I initiate a change to improve the current situation? Or do I leave things as they are and just not think to much. Perhaps all's well and I'm just overreacting. Oh well. I'm undecided. But I guess I really should stop thinking too much. Its dangerous. Is what is it, is what it is. So yeah.. Hahaz. No ones supposed to understand what I'm crapping about. So skip the para! Oh no, I should disclaim it at the top. But then, if I say, 'skip this para', I just know everyone will be even more intrigued to get through it. Oh well. Positivity transcends into Power in Life!

Back to the illusioned world. Yeps, class is still rocking. Played badminton today. Fun larz. Especially that match with Wenyi. Total Hoohah. Hahaz. Anyway, I was so freaked up about an entirely dumb comment made by some arse a couple days back. Its like, entirely degrading and humiliating. I mean, what in the world happened to talking behind peoples back. Its like, say what you want, just don't spit it out in front of me. Thats entirely dumb. What happened to social science? Bahhz.. Oh well..

I met Ernest on the bus yesterday! Like, highlight of the day. Hahaz. Its a real pity we don't talk anymore. But yeah, I still relive the good old days in kb.. Hahaz. Yeps. I'm waaaaaay behind in tutorials. So I guess I should go. Oh well..

Stay nice y'all~

kenn thwacked an asshat munchkin' at 8:52 PM